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Sweet Darkness

You must learn one thing:
the world was made to be free in….

Sometimes it takes darkness and the sweet
confinement of your aloneness
to learn

anything or anyone
that does not bring you alive

is too small for you.

You never know where you might find someone, or something, that fits just right.  If you’re not paying attention you might pass them by, never even realizing how close you came.

There are some people who just make a significant impact on your life, simply by being in it, and those people can bring you alive without even trying.

Lately, I’ve been thinking a lot about who those people are, for me, and about the fact that I’m in contact with so few of them.

It’s interesting, to think about the ways in which they were eliminated.  It makes me angry to remember the way he would get jealous when I gave someone else my attention, and how he tried his best to squash whatever happiness those relationships brought me.  He always wore me down to the point that the effort it took to keep those people in my life wasn’t worth the battle. 

What kind of person does that to someone they love?  It’s hard to get my head around that.

Over the past couple of weeks I’ve been trying to mend some of those broken friendships and so far, so good.  It’s amazing how, no matter how much time has passed, with some people you just feel completely at home.

I have been isolated for long enough.  I want to surround myself with those who help bring me alive, who appreciate me as I am, and I’m so lucky to know that there are people like that out there.

Even in darkness, there is always light. 

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